Saving the Friendship

I believe that friendship should be mutual. When we say mutual, both parties should exert the same effort to stay in touch. But what happens when one loses the enthusiasm to connect with the other? Is one person’s effort enough to save a dying friendship?

I am only human. I make mistakes, I disappoint other people and I fail to reach their expectations at certain times. I’m not a perfect person, and definitely not a perfect friend. In spite of this, I make it a point that I’m available for my friends especially when they need me. However, since I’m only human and not a robot, I can only do things one at a time. Most of the time, I get busy with school activities and other stuffs but that doesn’t mean that I am not doing my best to stay connected, and most importantly, that doesn’t mean that I changed…

Lately, I can’t help but be sentimental whenever I remember this particular person. No matter how hard I try to figure out, I don’t understand why we are experiencing this kind of problem in our friendship. Maybe it’s my fault. Maybe I became too selfish and self-centered.

I want to say sorry for everything that night, but when this person told me that in our case, sorry can’t change anything and that only time can heal all the wounds of the past, it seemed like I lost my ability to type the words that I want to say during that conversation. I started to think. Is it true that time heals all wounds? If yes, for how long? How long will I wait for our friendship to be okay again? 

That night, I promised to myself that from that time on, I won’t say sorry for all the bad things that happened in the past. Instead, I’ll start saving the friendship we have as early as now. I value this person. I value our friendship. I don’t know if he cares or what, but all I’m after is to revive the friendship we have for more than five years now. But the question is, how long can I do this? Isn’t it the effort to save a friendship should also be mutual? I don’t know. All I know is that I’ll try.