SELFISH?

So now I know how it feels like to be betrayed and fooled by someone.

It was a Thursday afternoon—December 16 to be exact. I was comfortably seated inside an air-conditioned room in school, waiting for the professor to come. I was a bit nervous because I wasn’t able to review my lessons well for I only received the e-mail of our lessons through the help of a classmate during the wee hours of the previous night.

With that, I have to sacrifice a few hours of sleep. I woke up at five in the morning and assiduously scanned and remembered the important points from the lecture. At 10:30 am, I went to school and waited there until the professor came. The exam started well.

To my surprise, while I was answering the test questions, one classmate approached the teacher and told her that she wasn’t able to receive any e-mail of the lectures. The teacher asked the person (whom she sent the lectures to) if she forwarded the e-mail to our classmates. Of course, she said NO. This person was trying to say that time that she asked someone to send the e-mail to me. I defended myself and told the teacher that I haven’t received any e-mail from anyone. In fact, I will not have a copy of the lecture if I didn’t ask one of my classmates to send me one. The professor again asked, “Who’s the class president?” I immediately raised my hand. After some time, the teacher said, “Sa susunod kung sino man ang makakatanggap ng e-mail na sinend ko, i-forward nyo sa iba. Huwag niyong solohin.”

Honestly, what the teacher said was nothing to me. I mean, my conscience is clear. I know I’m not the one who received the e-mail so how can I forward it to my classmates? What totally ruined my good mood at the start of the day was seeing this person nod and agree to what the prof was saying. It’s like this person was trying to make other people appear to be the SELFISH ONES, where in fact, we should be the one to say to her face how selfish she was (for keeping the e-mail of lectures to herself, I think).

I was pissed off. I was disappointed. I felt like I was betrayed and fooled by this person. I am not doing anything against anyone and I’ve never tried to be selfish at any point. Thanks to my classmates who tried to cheer me up that day by telling me that it’s really her attitude. I should be used to it for we still have two more years to be classmates.

I am sorry for being rude. I just can’t forget how this girl made me feel like I’m the SELFISH person.